haven't been realising...

it's once again, a new year ahead. one year has passed. remembering last year of this time. i think i was out partying again. i should say last year, i had the most fun of everything.

looking back, i miss everyone. i miss going clubbing with ai ke(ernest) and benji. ever since ai ke got enlisted into NS, never really kept in touch with him. as for benji, have briefly messaged. and since i missed ai ke's birthday party, i don't think i will be seeing them much in future.

i miss darling loads. haven't been meeting her often as she has family matters to attend to. i miss going out with her. when it was carefree. nothing to think of. having dinner at holland's v NYDC. that was my 1st and only time in holland v.

i miss my buddies, angie and marilyn. i think it is more than a year since i last saw angie. everyone is so busy. we didn't get to meet up. probably the last real meeting was in bugis.

i miss the days where dotbox was at dunlop st. where there is eddy, tay, hui ling, cz, leon and darling. ever since eddy left for NUS, haven't spoken to him much. and i also miss hongjun and jayrius. how we spent the nights together in dunlop. watching heroes overnight with hongjun. the chalet. st james powerhouse.

i miss the days how i was so crazy over prince. and i got so so excited when he asked me out on new year eve. i think cz and darling practically went crazy for me too for being crazy.

i miss the days where we worked hard for clubyouthfest 06. julia, leon, cz, darling and me. the smallest team but the most dynamic one. everyone were working towards a common goal. everyone knew what they want. it was when i saw how fun doing an event is.

i miss the days where we worked in orient explorer's d&d. the team has indeed grew alot. and it was the 1st time i saw prince. unfortunately, like a prince, he is only someone like a fairytale.

i miss the days where my mum was still in hospital. even though it is tiring shuttling between school, competition meetings and hospital, that was the period when i knew whom are your real friends. and it was also then we started speaking. if it wasn't for your daily sms that accompanies me on my trips to hospital, i think i would have given up long ago. if it wasn't for your tease, probably i wouldn't even have known you and you would just be another classmate. i don't know since when we started talking since you don't often come for classes. and i don't know why did you start sending all the sms everyday. and when i was so lost in direction, you came back and picked me up again. even though we broke up before the day of fireworks, it was funny how coincident the next few days were. it's like i meet you practically everywhere i went. school. sakae sushi. causeway point. fireworks. library. and to think that now it doesn't work this way. perhaps i was still living in my past. and still holding on to something that wasn't already there long ago. i miss you. and i'm letting go.

i miss the little surprises that pops up in my life now and then. and that what i always call a 1 time miracle. haha. probably the only thing that hasn't changed is chengze.

2007 have been a year that saw many changes in my life. not to live in regrets. but i forgot the word happiness. the world is never the same to me anymore. but i can't be trapped in my past.

4:49 AM

haven't been realising...

it's once again, a new year ahead. one year has passed. remembering last year of this time. i think i was out partying again. i should say last year, i had the most fun of everything.

looking back, i miss everyone. i miss going clubbing with ai ke(ernest) and benji. ever since ai ke got enlisted into NS, never really kept in touch with him. as for benji, have briefly messaged. and since i missed ai ke's birthday party, i don't think i will be seeing them much in future.

i miss darling loads. haven't been meeting her often as she has family matters to attend to. i miss going out with her. when it was carefree. nothing to think of. having dinner at holland's v NYDC. that was my 1st and only time in holland v.

i miss my buddies, angie and marilyn. i think it is more than a year since i last saw angie. everyone is so busy. we didn't get to meet up. probably the last real meeting was in bugis.

i miss the days where dotbox was at dunlop st. where there is eddy, tay, hui ling, cz, leon and darling. ever since eddy left for NUS, haven't spoken to him much. and i also miss hongjun and jayrius. how we spent the nights together in dunlop. watching heroes overnight with hongjun. the chalet. st james powerhouse.

i miss the days how i was so crazy over prince. and i got so so excited when he asked me out on new year eve. i think cz and darling practically went crazy for me too for being crazy.

i miss the days where we worked hard for clubyouthfest 06. julia, leon, cz, darling and me. the smallest team but the most dynamic one. everyone were working towards a common goal. everyone knew what they want. it was when i saw how fun doing an event is.

i miss the days where we worked in orient explorer's d&d. the team has indeed grew alot. and it was the 1st time i saw prince. unfortunately, like a prince, he is only someone like a fairytale.

i miss the days where my mum was still in hospital. even though it is tiring shuttling between school, competition meetings and hospital, that was the period when i knew whom are your real friends. and it was also then we started speaking. if it wasn't for your daily sms that accompanies me on my trips to hospital, i think i would have given up long ago. if it wasn't for your tease, probably i wouldn't even have known you and you would just be another classmate. i don't know since when we started talking since you don't often come for classes. and i don't know why did you start sending all the sms everyday. and when i was so lost in direction, you came back and picked me up again. even though we broke up before the day of fireworks, it was funny how coincident the next few days were. it's like i meet you practically everywhere i went. school. sakae sushi. causeway point. fireworks. library. and to think that now it doesn't work this way. perhaps i was still living in my past. and still holding on to something that wasn't already there long ago. i miss you. and i'm letting go.

i miss the little surprises that pops up in my life now and then. and that what i always call a 1 time miracle. haha. probably the only thing that hasn't changed is chengze.

2007 have been a year that saw many changes in my life. not to live in regrets. but i forgot the word happiness. the world is never the same to me anymore. but i can't be trapped in my past.

4:49 AM
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