i know christmas has just passed and here i am talking about new year.

ever since she left, my life went through a major change

from science to events

at some point of time, i had doubts with myself, with my choice

things will definately be different if she were around

but i don't regret what i have now

because this is what i chose...

don't know why. today's kfc meal with my brother seems as if i was having a meal with her.

i have always been the one whom hides behind my mask well

no one sees my tears. only my "haha"s...

only few can listen to my heart.

it was weird when gor gor asked.

he heard. he asked. he spoke.

very unlike of him.

but it's good.

i enjoyed my time with him

as usual, my super long of thank you list:

my one and only dearest gor gor - it has been a difficult year for the both of us. having lost a pillar in our life, i understand that we are biting our lips to keep the foundation strong. fate brought us together. i am glad, it is you whom is my brother and not anyone else. it was hard. being a mummy, being a daddy, being a mentor and being a brother to me. thank you for everything.

my daddy - i never understood what a father is for other than just giving us pocket money. because of your previously passive role, i have never took notice of you before. only when she left. thank you for playing a part in this family again. thank you for the endless trust in me.

my best partner ever, you shld know whom you are - probably the other only one whom can tahan all my weird habits, my weird attitude. my various rantings, my complaints. we shed tears together. we worked each other's ass out. kicked my ass when i became too dreamy. best drinking buddy. the only one whom will call you at 3am and ask, shui le mah? pei wo jiang hua. haha.

my darling - quiet in her own world. other person whom can tahan my weird habits and attitude. does things silently. even with her own problem, never fails to be there for me when i meet with a problem. because of i am too caught up by work, sometimes neglected her alone. even after her ranting, she will still smile and say darling, do your best in work. thanks for the understanding.

my durian head/nut head buddy - hahah. the one i can call him at 3am and force him to talk to me till dawn. though he might grumble? the one whom doesn't speaks much and likes to observe his surroundings. the one whom i can never guess what's up in his head because he just have loads of surprises under his sleeves. the one and only able to do loads of crazy stunts when he is drunk. the one whom can read my mind even i don't speak. the only one whom takes notice of my msn nick. and the only one whom dares to ruffle my hair! i think after that incident, it just strengthens our friendship even more.

my girlfriends - probably the ones i meet the least among all. but our hearts never changed. the only people whom will stay rooted for you no matter what you do.

tiffany and huiling - my angels. the ones whom will always be there when you need help. the ones whom can understand and still believe in us. when you thought you are left alone, -ding- the angels appear. the ones whom will stay with you till dawn to do stupid stuffs like painting or pasting stickers. thank you super loads for the various help.

alan - was pondering whether to put him up but have to admit he have taught me loads. and definately we had the best time ever. someone with loads of surprises. probably someone whom can be considered as perfect bf. the one whom you can share thoughts with, talk about life, talk about future. the one whom you can dream with. the one whom never doubted my abilities and always ask me to remember to relax, take a break when needed.

jinlong - haha. i should say we always had awkward meetings. i should say because of clariant, i got to know him all over again. the real him. not the serene's-sec 2-crush-dreamy-jl. LOL. and indeed i had fun with you and jona. the one you can find when buddy ignores you!!! -kidding-

wai keong - the silent knight. probably my guardian angel. never fails to urge me to take care of myself. helps me with work and school without saying anything. only one whom will argue with me at the slightest things just to see my angry face/expression. blah

my - probably the only bf whom will compromise so much. though it was short, it was memorable. am glad you have learnt alot. and have matured.

dearie - lol. the one and only weirdest relationship. one that few will ever comprehend. but even with the lack of meetups, he is one of the rare few whom can listen to my heart. he has the most wonderful ears? only with one message, he knows whether i am happy or sad. amazing i should say. one and only whom never questions about my work. one and only whom gives me loads of freedom to go for my passion. the one and only whom can puts a smile on my face all day long with only 1 sms.

kkz. i think it is end of my list. i know this year, my list is shorter. hahaha. it's 5am!!! well, loads of people came and left in my life. i can't possibly thank them all right? only the significant ones. =)

3:44 AM

i know christmas has just passed and here i am talking about new year.

ever since she left, my life went through a major change

from science to events

at some point of time, i had doubts with myself, with my choice

things will definately be different if she were around

but i don't regret what i have now

because this is what i chose...

don't know why. today's kfc meal with my brother seems as if i was having a meal with her.

i have always been the one whom hides behind my mask well

no one sees my tears. only my "haha"s...

only few can listen to my heart.

it was weird when gor gor asked.

he heard. he asked. he spoke.

very unlike of him.

but it's good.

i enjoyed my time with him

as usual, my super long of thank you list:

my one and only dearest gor gor - it has been a difficult year for the both of us. having lost a pillar in our life, i understand that we are biting our lips to keep the foundation strong. fate brought us together. i am glad, it is you whom is my brother and not anyone else. it was hard. being a mummy, being a daddy, being a mentor and being a brother to me. thank you for everything.

my daddy - i never understood what a father is for other than just giving us pocket money. because of your previously passive role, i have never took notice of you before. only when she left. thank you for playing a part in this family again. thank you for the endless trust in me.

my best partner ever, you shld know whom you are - probably the other only one whom can tahan all my weird habits, my weird attitude. my various rantings, my complaints. we shed tears together. we worked each other's ass out. kicked my ass when i became too dreamy. best drinking buddy. the only one whom will call you at 3am and ask, shui le mah? pei wo jiang hua. haha.

my darling - quiet in her own world. other person whom can tahan my weird habits and attitude. does things silently. even with her own problem, never fails to be there for me when i meet with a problem. because of i am too caught up by work, sometimes neglected her alone. even after her ranting, she will still smile and say darling, do your best in work. thanks for the understanding.

my durian head/nut head buddy - hahah. the one i can call him at 3am and force him to talk to me till dawn. though he might grumble? the one whom doesn't speaks much and likes to observe his surroundings. the one whom i can never guess what's up in his head because he just have loads of surprises under his sleeves. the one and only able to do loads of crazy stunts when he is drunk. the one whom can read my mind even i don't speak. the only one whom takes notice of my msn nick. and the only one whom dares to ruffle my hair! i think after that incident, it just strengthens our friendship even more.

my girlfriends - probably the ones i meet the least among all. but our hearts never changed. the only people whom will stay rooted for you no matter what you do.

tiffany and huiling - my angels. the ones whom will always be there when you need help. the ones whom can understand and still believe in us. when you thought you are left alone, -ding- the angels appear. the ones whom will stay with you till dawn to do stupid stuffs like painting or pasting stickers. thank you super loads for the various help.

alan - was pondering whether to put him up but have to admit he have taught me loads. and definately we had the best time ever. someone with loads of surprises. probably someone whom can be considered as perfect bf. the one whom you can share thoughts with, talk about life, talk about future. the one whom you can dream with. the one whom never doubted my abilities and always ask me to remember to relax, take a break when needed.

jinlong - haha. i should say we always had awkward meetings. i should say because of clariant, i got to know him all over again. the real him. not the serene's-sec 2-crush-dreamy-jl. LOL. and indeed i had fun with you and jona. the one you can find when buddy ignores you!!! -kidding-

wai keong - the silent knight. probably my guardian angel. never fails to urge me to take care of myself. helps me with work and school without saying anything. only one whom will argue with me at the slightest things just to see my angry face/expression. blah

my - probably the only bf whom will compromise so much. though it was short, it was memorable. am glad you have learnt alot. and have matured.

dearie - lol. the one and only weirdest relationship. one that few will ever comprehend. but even with the lack of meetups, he is one of the rare few whom can listen to my heart. he has the most wonderful ears? only with one message, he knows whether i am happy or sad. amazing i should say. one and only whom never questions about my work. one and only whom gives me loads of freedom to go for my passion. the one and only whom can puts a smile on my face all day long with only 1 sms.

kkz. i think it is end of my list. i know this year, my list is shorter. hahaha. it's 5am!!! well, loads of people came and left in my life. i can't possibly thank them all right? only the significant ones. =)

3:44 AM
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