Saturday, March 29, 2008
on a rainy day...
hmmm...
probably i was or i am the only one who knows this kind of feeling.
the kind of loneliness that not everyong can feel
you can eat as much as you want
laugh as much as you want
trying all ways to make yourself happy
but still...
there is this hole in your heart.
this is call emptiness.
it's not loneliness
and yet you feel all alone.
especially when you have much "burden" with you
forcing yourself to be strong; letting them lean on you
when you yourself is only a pathetic film... not a wall.
and when they said don't worry... time will heal all wounds.
it is all lies.
because time will never heal the wounds.
ten years... thirty years... it still hurts.
probably it is only reality that will heal all wounds.
only by accepting reality, facing it and letting go.
it won't hurt.
sad but true.
i only learnt that when i was in sgh last dec.
i was a fool.
holding on to things that belonged to the past.
and belonging to memory.
darling, i know how you are like.
i hope you will choose to face it strongly.
it's harsh but this is the only way she will be happy.
=)
jia you, my dearest.
i'm always here for you.
hmmm...
was on the train this evening.
and this particular song kept repeating in my head.
it was from a super long ago movie by fann wong.
i have always wanted to find that song but was lazy.
only today... i had this super strong urge to find this song out.
and i found...
真心话
By 何润东
早晨醒来身上沾了颜料
而画笔还握得很紧很牢
阳光中你仍静静悄悄
在画板上看着我微笑
几乎每天梦到散着步和你聊
有一种幸福和美好
我感觉得到却捕捉不到
有时候让情绪很糟
感动明明塞满胸口却说不明白
我爱得多么澎湃
只愿你能看得出来
喜欢你想爱你想说真心话
我只有深情但请你收下
我只有痴狂却不懂得方法
把我心里想的怀里有的清楚让你看吧
喜欢你想爱你想说真心话
路也许还长但爱已出发
我也许太傻却一点也不假
会永远体贴永远守约你肯让我爱你吗
想看着你闹陪着你笑让我爱你吧
so... what do you say?
12:49 AM
