loads of happenings today.
met mr soh for lunch.
mr moh couldn't make it. sad.
then went over to his office after lunch.
met nat and andrew. (the ones i met in the roadshow)
talked, rot, kpo awhile.
went back to office.
quite happening.






"fate can get intertwine and entangled, and then just break off from each other to form completely new destinies." - quoted from shawn.


i do agree on this part.
it was a pleasant surprise.
but am happy for her.
because i think he is a good choice.
-winks-






went to tian tian huo guo for dinner.
me take the tom yum one, cz took the pai gu.
one more craving satisfied.
yum yum.
because on the way to meet soh, cz saw his ex gf.
and she msged him when we were eating.
so he began to ask me some questions.
particularly about jk.
and that incident.
hmmm...
all i can say is:












我曾經嘗試過
用一百零一percent的心
去愛一個人
一直在他身后旁看着
我現在卻想不起
為什么我愛他


一個在你面前說我愛你
卻在你后面是一個殘酷的人
儅該放手的時候
我就因該放手了
因爲儅你受上時
他是不會回頭


那一晚，哭了，也累了，
心也痲了


我還找不到理由再相信愛情。












that's my answer bah.
i don't see it as hiding from facts.
but i am tired talking or hearing about it.
so... yup.
pardon my chinese though.
still not familiar with compaq
couldn't find simplified chinese.

12:14 AM

爱我
By 唐禹哲

不明不白的一个闷热下午
忽然梦见你的脸过分清楚
褪色的墙袭击了我的床铺
我的呼吸想念着你的特殊

狂风暴雨之中
我是勇敢的树
等待你会疲倦
停在我的保护
失去多久才够
接受爱的残酷
为何你要放弃了这全部

亲爱的我只求拥抱你一秒
让心跳解释没有了你不能跳
再一次因为你把自己燃烧
哪怕这世界毁灭
我也只要你
爱我

音乐不停在房间掩饰孤独
也停不了你声音那些起伏
放下一切我还是会不幸福
因为未来没有你不叫幸福
分开我打坏我看看我的好

任凭你感觉我对你的戒不掉
再一次把心动用你来套牢
交换一辈子等你我都嫌太少

亲爱的我只求拥抱你一秒
交换一辈子等你都嫌太少






























ok. me thinking a little bit after watching tv.
also too much dramas doesn't help.
and writing diary sucks more
cause i have the tendency to flip back the pages.
LOL.
not a good thing recalling past?
perhaps?
have thought quite a bit.
and i feel......


if one is ever in love,
the love should be as spontaneous as the song above?
what is a love without even a tiny bit of excitement?


like what i always say...
it's chemistry.

2:06 AM

today very good.
finished work early.
sadly it's eric's last day.
:x
i will miss my lunch buddy.
no more motivation to go office early le.


anyway i mentioned about my friend's SUPERBAND in the previous post?
ok.
but because i actually went to have laksa, wasn't back in time to see the entertainment news club.
so as the ever resourceful serene, went to google about it.
te-deng!
i found it!

left to right: desmond, gary, jeeyon, andy.


so the ones i know is desmond and jeeyon.
so if you are fan of superband, do help support.
=)


watched my 1st episode of wei wo du zun.
back home in time for it.
erm. the guys ok ok lah.
but i spot a my type prince charming!
icaru yuan.
nevermind that he is from china.
wind is also from china.
WAHAHAHAHA.
like his boyish yet charming looks.












the also resourceful him google out more blood type comics.
simply funny.
especially type B.

9:38 PM

ok. these are the ones i wanted to post up.
not only on type Bs but all the blood types.
But the Bs one is the most accurate and funniest.

had a nice pleasant surprise yesterday.
one stone kill two cravings.
laksa and him
(i realized it's pretty weird to always call him mushroom.
even david asked me about it. :x)
=)

2:47 PM

PLEASE REMIND ME TO GO AND BLOODY GET A COMPAQ CHARGER FROM SIM LIM.

!@#$%^&*

blah.

life without a laptop sucks.

life with a laptop without charger sucks even more.

and i have a mean brother at home.

HAR!

so bloody bored at home.

and can't go out.

sad.

and NO ONE sms me. (ok. no someone)

blah blah blah.

monday monday monday

work work work.

13 may 13 may 13 may.

quick quick come.

ROAR.

my bf is type B.

was watching that yesterday.

actually have some pictures to blog about.

but that darn server don't let me upload.

so too bad.

another time bah.

anyway, yeah.

type B guys are the ones i hate most.

sorry.. not because i got influence by the show.

but i have a fair share of B guys too.

gross.

they are the most arrogant, self-centered freaks i ever known.

(cz, you don't so sensitive. i not saying you. you aren't B right?)

LOL.

blah.

why i say that?

cause i'm staying with 2.

ROAR.

no way am i going to find B group bf.

also, congrats to jeeyon

his band got into SUPERBAND top 16!

woootz.

he better win.

then i can be "ming xing's" friend!

:x

LOL.

kidding.

jia you!

5:11 PM

苦茶

By :棒棒堂 黑涩会美眉

微微笑的看你越是认真就越让人心疼

街头那盏路灯仿佛在笑我愚笨

没什么能做但我比谁都真诚

泡一杯苦茶陪伴你到夜深

你知不知道你总有一种很可爱的独特

让我充满勇气抵抗冬天的寒冷

怎样做才会完美像个男人

喝一杯苦茶温暖你的体温

大男孩的口吻魅力加到一百分

怎样做才会完美像个男人

喝一杯苦茶温暖你的体温

虽然永远太不可能

少了你的完整

两个对的人奇迹就能发生

这一刻只想把你

抱紧

so boring.

=(

i will be busy busy soon.

haiz.

9:10 PM

迷宫

By 于浩威

爱来爱走

傻傻地爱你还是选择了自由

谁错我现在不想说

反正没有结果

向左向右

你善变的心永远永远猜不透

你用爱我的理由

现在又离开我

我不敢放开手

绕啊绕的还是找不到出口

被下咒语的迷宫

我站在天堂的入口

你突然就放手

我听说这条路难走

不能回头

我跟着留下的线索

小心不再犯错

被困在无解的角落

到底还要多久

i accidentally found out about this singer yesterday

he is almost past tense

but i realised that he has nice vocals.

too bad, not much good songs he has

except this is not bad.

he also has a NANA song quite cool too.

was watching million of stars yesterday.

not bad.

i like the PK challenge.

anyway i think he did better than that stupid guy yst.

i feel the show quite lame.

is very obvious that the show is purposely sacrificing simba

because he was against a well known host in taiwan.

i find that there were other singers better lorz.

like joanna and pan dunnoe what de.

howl yu too!

blah.

not fair.

ok. enough ranting.

yesterday irwin came down.

weee. ever since nike launch, haven't seen him.

came to help me in some projects.

muhahahahaha.

i miss tiffany so much.

=(

hope her semester quickly ends.

jia you jia you.

after work, went for dinner with eric and cz.

wa. HAPPENING.

caused my friend's sister's bf got charged in court

then kept calling to ask for help.

and i didn't know using a key to assualt people is also known as rioting.

blah.

he suay lah.

what nice friends he has.

went to bao tou him when he didn't do anything.

17 years old only, will get prison sentence a not?

anyhow, brought eric to the nice nice vegetarian restaurant.

and he is so smart.

LOL.

my favourite place!

=)

yum yum.

and we had fried mushroom (who ask you never join us.)

damn nice. =p

and we were tempted to go and watch a RA movie.

but we realised all in foreign language.

DOTS.

and the uncles there look... pervert.

so NEXT.

i want to eat:

Katong Laksa.

Roti Prata with fish curry.

Vegetable curry.

ROAR!

12:07 PM

say hello to compaq lappy.
=)


Love me for a reason
By Boyzone


Girl when you hold me
How you control me
You bend and you fold me
Any way you please


It must be easy for you
To love the things that you do
But just a pastime for you
I could never be


And I never know girl
If I should stay or go
Cos the games that you play
Are driving me away...


Don't love me for fun girl
Let me be the one girl
Love Me For a Reason
Let the reason be love
Don't love me for fun, girl
Let me be the one, girl
Love Me For a Reason
Let the reason be love


Kisses and caresses
Are only minor tests, babe
Of love turned to stresses
Between a woman and a man
So if love everlasting
Isn't what you're asking
I'll have to pass, girl
I'm proud to take a stand


I can't continue guessing
Because it's only messing
With my pride, and my mind
So write down this time to time


Don't love me for fun, girl
Let me be the one, girl
Love Me For a Reason
Let the reason be love
Don't love me for fun, girl
Let me be the one, girl
Love Me For a Reason
Let the reason be love


I'm just a little olf-fashioned
It takes more than a physical attraction
My initial reaction is
Honey give me a love
Not a fascimile of


Don't love me for fun, girl
Let me be the one, girl
Love Me For a Reason
Let the reason be love
Don't love me for fun, girl
Let me be the one, girl
Love Me For a Reason
Let the reason be love




















am i too sensitive?
probably i do have my rights of doubts?
what happens if your past caught up with you?
not that i am afraid of anything.
what if you happened to hear something you shouldn't have?
frankly, i have never thought much about it earlier.
till i realized how much she can influence him.
or am i thinking too much?
i don't need misjudgment of my character to be told or discussed with him.
yes. our friendship may seemed "very close"
but no, i don't know you well.
neither do you know me well.
i felt betrayed.
can i trust him again?
or even, everything he does, does he have a motive?






probably i should just ask him about it.

5:55 PM

muhahahahaha.

went down to office.

met the NP team to discuss about their project.

albert just came back from china.

see that cute little thing on his table?

muhahaha. CJ7

from china.

nicer than the ones in s'pore

or probably those that i saw bah.

kinda pissed off with someone.

blah.

seriously i don't know what to say.

blah blah.

haiz.

went to sim lim square to get a new ram for compaq.

and a hard disk casing for my fujistu hard disks.

met doreen.

ate so many things.

had laksa for dinner.

YUM YUM.

delicious.

then walked over to raffles city to do some stupid things.

blah.

you know, if i i'm married and you still see me hanging out with a guy

probably he is the one.

muhahaha

(christine says 男人不坏女人不爱)

went to donut factory got donuts.

bought 6, ate the rest.

was still early from his knock off time.

so sat there slacked a bit, got subway to munch.

-yeah, i ate alot-

it's 9pm!

really very slowly walked over.

2 hearts donut and a heart lollipop.

aren't i romantic?

MUHAHAHAHA.

he said: people give 1 box of donuts leh.

you gave 2 only.

= =

but mine has more hearts!

more "LOVE LOVE 感觉" (quoted from JR)

hehe.

but i did catch him by surprise!

he was like "OMG! YOU CAME! AND WITH DONUTS!!!"

blah.

see. i say it, i will do it.

waiting for bus home.
him munching the donuts.

=p

la la la la la

reached yishun went to makan again!

it's 12 and we are still eating again.

went to S11 oppo mrt makan.

blah.

the prata there not nice.

sian.

home sweet home.

=)

10:54 AM

muhahahha

i think you all can say i sua gu or what

this is my first time going to a birthday party.

haha

was watching harry potter this afternoon.

waiting for ben and victor to come collect me.

hehe.

they 2 stay quite near my house.

was raining.

so brought additional umbrella for victor.

took 39 to tampines.

on the bus, saw sze wei.

hmmm... ben spoke to him.

me not really. (i'm dao)

LOL.

reach aloha changi.

quite a few have reached.

but me only know ben and victor.

soon after, wei cong and choon hou came.

FINALLY!

at least i got wei cong.

hehe.

saw clement and his gf.

we stayed in the living room alot.

played cards, watched tv.

made edmund played with us.

so that can forfeit him later.

*evil*

huey jinn came.

then sherman and serene(khoo).

super long no see serene le.

ever since year 1.

i don't have the group photo with everyone.

only have the one in our group.

hehe. too bad.

cause got alot of shuai ge.

LOL.

edmund's outside friends.

left to right (top):

choon hou, victor, zac (or jeff? forgot his name), sherman, wei cong.

left to right (front):

serene, ben, edmund (bday boy), me, huey jinn, joyce, clement.

nice?

but didn't buy.

bought another dress instead.

=p

isetan sales.

wa. life so not fair!

me one week never see tiffany only,

finally met her on friday,

she say she has bf liao!

yeah. with her that cancerian.

blah.

and i one day never see cz only,

HE TOO GOT GF LIAO!

wtf.

why all like that?

blah.

super sian.

11:39 PM

woke up rather early for a saturday.

sian.

me now using gor gor's lappy.

hehe.

damn cool. get to his comments for the student's RJ.

LOL.

went to heeren to meet abductboy and sparky and "i dunnoe her name"

weird names?

LOL.

they are from API.

yeah. we planning some ghostly things.

LOL.

do join their tour in june.

=)

after lunch meeting with them, went to shopped a little.

was waiting for benjamin, victor and shiyun.

saw charmaine. saw ai ke.

muhahaha.

and ai ke has a pretty girl beside him. o.O

went to meet benjamin, victor and shiyun at orchard mrt.

took train to bugis.

went to the sex toy shop in bugis.

=p

was planning to get a sex toy for edmund's bday tomorrow.

too bad. age limit: 23 years old.

so in the end, went to meet lucky plaza.

house of condoms.

cool. found what we wanted.

met choon hou and another faci.

dragged them in.

=p

wahahaha. we are terrors.

so bought the things, went to food republic for dinner.

on the way home on train, saw this guy whom looks like DL (heroes)

wahahaha.

i bought a new dress!

=)

looking for a new writing notebook for my lesson.

haiz.

10:48 PM

blah.

it was a shitty day.

woke up, met CJ at toa payoh.

dropped laptop at overhead bridge.

bad move.

went to register for the course with CJ.

my online registration didn't go through.

LOL.

CJ's application was accepted 5 times.

muhahahha.

so he is going to pay 5 times. kidding.

quite excited.

advantage of CJ:

- he stays across my street

- got someone to accompany me every tues night

- first day of lesson no need scare don't know anyone

- can get him to take down notes if i never attend

disadvantage of CJ:

- cannot know any shuai ge if there were any.

LOL. ok. not funny.

damn funny.

we were asking that admin lady how many participants have enrolled

she said she has 2 couples already.

then CJ said: we are not couple.

LOL.

that auntie also damn funny.

ask her how many people also not asking couple.

so anyway, my lappy screen crack le.

am blogging on david's lappy.

yeah.

me still in office.

=p

had dinner with david.

he ask how come we young people spend TGIF with him and not in clubs.

LOL.

to somone:

thanks for tagging my blog.

thanks for wanting to wait for me.

thanks for everything you given me.

thanks for the wonderful dream you gave me.

thanks for the lovely fireworks.

it was best day ever.

and it will always remain in my memories.

2006 was really a shitty year for me.

but because of your existence; you have sugar coated it.

you were what i called... miracle.

you were what i known as prince charming.

it doesn't matter how long you are going to wait for me now

or how long i have waited for you.

while your thoughts were swaying

while you were still unsure of yourself and your feelings

while you were at a standstill;

i have moved on.

you had a chance but you lost it

whatever i may have felt for you

it's all different now.

as time goes by;

i have changed.

and after you walked away,

i am now much stronger.

i live by "no regrets"

i did, i am and always will.

i'm sorry.

it's never the same anymore.

thank you for everything.

you will always remain as that prince in my memory.

i'll wish you all the best.

=)

11:08 PM

=)

on my journey back from office,

on the bus.

i thought super loads.

and after seeing what jin zi cong can do

i'm sure i can do it as well.

i am damn determine this time.

i realised i have been sitting around and have not done it yet.

empty promises is no promises.

i think this is the right time.

before i am lazy once again,

i went to sign up for it!

my lesson is starting on 13 May 08.

starting from beginning.

but who cares.

is my dream.

is my promise.

is my want.

STUDY STUDY STUDY!

GAMBATTE!

5 years promise with mr moh...

wait for me.

i say it, i can do it!

wahahahha.

and guess what?

CJ says he want to accompany me for the lessons.

cause he also want to take.

WEEEE!!!

i got company.

yeah.

it won't be boring.

back to secondary school days.

mugging!

12:05 AM

hmmm...

was it a good day or bad day?

cz went for class gathering in the noon.

stayed home to do work; lazy to go office.

gor gor cooked porridge today.

i smelt a bit chao ta so i added marmite in mine.

yeah, i'm mean.

=p

met cz at 6.30pm, meeting some friends for dinner.

went to fish and co at wheelock place.

hmmm.. not bad.

don't really know them, just casual friends.

after dinner, the guys wanted to dota.

and i wanted to do some shopping for ed's birthday on sunday.

going to his bday party.

another bbq thing.

pray hard i don't fall sick again.

blah.

so i left without them.

probably this is my mistake.

was walking on the streets of orchard.

and i met...

prince.

he disappeared so suddenly

and reappeared so suddenly.

right at the same old spot where he first said hi.

he wasn't with anyone; alone.

why did he even recognise me

or rather said hi.

blah.

he got me ice cream

and we sat down and talked.

about the past. about the things i've done.

about the things he done. about army.

pretty much catching up.

i had this sudden urge to ask him:

why he blocked me on msn then?

why he stop replying to my messages?

why he split up with his band?

why he just disappeared suddenly?

hmmm.

but i didn't.

as usual, he sent me to the bus stop.

he held me back before i board it.

he said he was glad to be able to meet me again.

with that;

i thought alot on my journey home.

i have mixed feelings about it.

his sms came right before i stepped into my house.

blah.

i don't want to hope for things i shouldn't hope for.

i don't want to expect things i shouldn't be expecting.

what if he disappeared once again?

probably some things shouldn't even have happened.

Stars

By Simply Red

Anyone who ever held you

Would tell you the way Im feeling

Anyone who ever wanted you

Would try to tell you what I feel inside

The only thing I ever wanted

Was the feeling that you aint faking

The only one you ever thought about

Wait a minute cant you see that i

I wanna fall from the stars

Straight into your arms

I I feel you

I hope you comprehend

For the man who tried to hurt you

Hes explaining the way Im feeling

For all the jealousy I caused you

States the reason why Im trying to hide

As for all the things you taught me

It sends my future into clearer dimensions

Youll never know how much you hurt me

Stay a minute cant you see that i

I wanna fall from the stars

Straight into your arms

I I feel you

I hope you comprehend

Too many hearts are broken

So many words are left unspoken

The silent voices are driving me crazy

As for all the pain you caused me

Making up could never be your intention

Youll never know how much you hurt me

Stay cant you see that i

I wanna fall from the stars

Straight into your arms

I I feel you

I hope you comprehend

11:54 PM

sunday:

woke up super early.

sent gor gor to PSC at bukit merah

then went over to guang ming san to meet my small uncle.

this year i'm lucky.

not much of the uncles and aunties came.

only my 2nd and smallest uncle and aunties.

my smallest uncle and auntie are not prone to ask sensitive questions.

me closer to them as compared to the rest.

lucky me.

after guang ming san, went to ji dou am (canto) to pray.

met auntie tong (my mum's neighbour).

she has aged alot.

spoke to her a little before they went for lunch.

after lunch went to choa chu kang cemetery.

was sunburnt there.

i have two red patch on my shoulder (i wore racerback).

blah.

went home bathe; took a nap.

chat a bit with him and he tried to redraw my series of annares with little yellow umbrella.

LOL.

with a stylus, i definately can draw better.

:x

but i appreciate his effort.

after a shitty week meeting those mentioned in previous entry,

it was like icing on a chao ta cake to sweeten the week.

hehe.

=)

monday:

started with an early day again.

went to ngee ann poly in the morning.

met cz and christine.

realised we are a bit too early.

thanks to cz.

so we rotted in their library.

1st day of sch.

quite fun.

LOADS OF HUNKS.

it is eye candy paradiase.

and i spotted a sun wu kong today.

:x

at least that's what i call him.

gave a brief talk in one of their lectures.

not bad.

but i find the class can be a bit more enthu.

my sec sch kids are more enthu than them.

and probably some viewed me as a "flower vase" too.

cause i spoke little in the presentation (just introduced myself)

reason being, not i dao but formal presentations are better done solo than having 2 speakers.

usually it tends to confuse clients a bit.

not that they are my clients or what.

hmmm... but i can be quite tempremental at times.

didn't feel like sharing with them.

(they don't look friendly.)

saw this guy in the class, thought i have seen him somewhere.

he spoke to me first.

about business competitions.

i guess there's where i have seen him.

there's this cute hunk too.

but rather soft spoken, i thought he could talked more.

noticed the potential ones.

there was this sweet talker too, a malay? or an indian?

he deserves his rights to sweet talk, cause he looks good.

=)

picked up a few projects.

overall experience with the students, so-so bahz.

don't have any comments.

went to heeren for a meeting.

roadshow in june.

loads to do in june.

blah.

MONEY MONEY come to mummy!

lol.

loads of things i wanna do.

=)

was reading through my old blog (anna-res)

came across 06 july 07 post.

am still racking my brains pretty hard

under what sort of circumstances was i in to write such a comment.

:x

blah.

LOL.

1:00 AM

不是不想

By 胡彦斌

不敢面对你说起

实在是不得已

这是我藏在心里的秘密

因为你明晚就要离去

想要说却没勇气

只能把它痛苦地回忆

甘心情愿就这样活下去

不是不想对你表白我的心意

不是不想对你说我爱你

也许这本是场没有结局的游戏

让时间来冲淡记忆

不是不想对你表白我的心意

不是不想对你说我爱你

我会永远把痛苦埋藏心底

把它作为我

对你永久的回忆

不是不想

只是不能

面对将要离去的你

又怎能说的出去

只好一个人

默默地守着那份回忆

活下去

2:00 AM

super loads of thoughts today

may be vulgar.

and insensitive.

can't take the rants? BUZZ OFF!

firstly...

if everyone hates people wasting their time,

why can't they be more considerate not to waste other people's time?

was rather pissed off.

if you can't make it for an arrangement

why can't they take initiative to cancel it before the time

and not wait till it's close to the meeting time then you cancel it.

worst till. only until i called then i realised it is cancelled.

blah.

if you don't like people to waste your time, don't waste mine too.

thanks.

secondly...

there is something call compromise.

when you are late, i never say much.

yet when i am late (for only 10 mins), you made a big fuss out of it.

do you think it makes sense?

or do you even think that it is even fair for me?

that i have to tolerate all your shit?

blah.

thirdly...

i can't understand don't arrogant bums.

thinking how good they are just because they have a degree i have none.

and they happened to be more brainless than me.

what's the use of wasting money for the degree

when you can't even practise common sense.

or at least basic business sense?

know whom you are dealing with before you even try to eat that person.

blah.

fourthly...

some self-centered nut can only see

my, myself and i and nothing else.

i don't understand why such person exist?

and don't admit that they are SELFISH.

probably because their body built is too big

that they can only see tummy (me, myself and i) and nothing else.

they expect people to be sensitive to them when they are not even a bit sensitive to others.

and at the end of the day, they will always want to be seen as the victim

and not the culprit.

well... the world does not goes like this.

manipulate all you want.

you will always be at the losing end.

because you will never find true friends.

blah.

fifthly...

some just take things for granted.

they sit there and wait for things to happen.

they are never the ones whom takes initiative to make it happen.

because they always have this confident that they can get something better.

FAT HOPE. DREAM ON.

sitting at home won't get you something better.

dream more...

and you will get it in your dreams.

blah.

ok. end of ranting.

have tolerated these for weeks.

below will be more of my personal self-reflection.

=)

went to Perfect Potion today.

met mr soh and mr moh.

and yvonne.

fruitful one.

i know yvonne before she came to RP.

and we are cancerians.

hence we instantly clicked when we worked in PP.

spent my whole afternoon talking to her and mr moh.

in my life, i have 6 very good mentors.

choon hou, eddie chua, mr soh, mr moh, david and albert.

of all...

i am much closer to mr moh and albert.

i see both of them like a buddy father.

and the striking similarities with them are:

they are both eligible bachelors.

LOL.

not that i fancy old guys.

but they are able to see things differently from a family man.

now i understand fully the things that mr moh does to me.

and i think we share similiar vision.

=)

and after today's talk with him,

i understood fully why am i trading my university education for this.

no matter how garang or strong one can be,

there are still times of uncertainity of your choices sometime.

but he showed me what i want and what i can do.

i have never seen people whom have more confidence in me

than i have for myself.

but mr moh and albert did.

to keep my promise with mr moh,

i will make sure i am definately more than whom i am now.

=)

4 years.

recently got to know this guy, jin zi cong.

hmmm... i find that i am beginning to admire him alot.

his fearless way of doing things.

his determination in some ways.

too bad. he isn't in my world.

blah.

tomorrow going to pray ancestors.

one of the events that i don't wish to attend.

reason being, i get to see my relatives.

nothing exciting about it.

and i can predict the questions they will ask tomorrow:

which university are you going to?

why you not going to university?

cannot make it is it?

let me tell you blah blah cousin did blah blah.

yeah. good for them.

not my thing.

and i don't like to explain myself much.

and i pray hard that gary (cousin that facilitates in RP) did not tell his parents about the newspaper article.

otherwise, i'm dead.

can expect even more questions from them.

and worst.

my gor gor run away again!

blah.

always like that.

hahah.

and my papa was saying today,

study university very clever meh?

every tom dick and harry also can do that.

got money can liao what.

hehe.

my dad rocks sometimes.

just chatted with gene.

he asked me why i like daisies.

hmmm... it represents my mum.

my mum's name is daisy.

but she likes orchids.

i like daisies.

=)

daisies are just like her.

gentle yet strong.

=)

10:46 PM

day was slow.

went to office.

cough.

met christine.

did work.

cough.

lunch with eric.

meeting.

cough.

work.

cough.

sms with tzi yun

chatted with wk.

cough.

ok ok.

i can't stop coughing.

blah.

and albert was so sweet.

he got cough drops for me.

=)

blah.

and yesterday he gave me apple.

wahahaha.

albert rocks. =)

blah.

ok.

was chatting with wk about some random issues.

he was asking how come after those nasty things he said to me

i am still here for him.

hmmm..

well, friendship isn't just about hearing nasty things and walk off?

but hearing nasty things, understanding them and stay bahz.

everyone has their freedom of judgement.

i can't tell you this and that.

neither can i force you to accept my perceptions.

blah.

office is boring.

especially when cz is on MC.

no noise. so quiet.

lucky lunch and going home still have eric.

=)

he is a blessing in disguise. LOL.

:x

hahaha.

we were talking about the past during lunch.

he is one of the few friends i first have in W36K.

we happened to be in same group for 4 days out of 5 days.

hahah.

and for some certain reasons,

he scared me off by the 2nd week. (angie knows why)

LOL.

but ok lah, after that, it still turned out well.

he is a nice crappy friend.

=)

and super good in keeping secrets.

WAHAHAHAHA.

*coughs coughs*

=(

10:44 PM

it takes two hands to clap.

with only one hand clapping, all you get is air.

probably in a relationship it is about giving and receiving.

it's true that one may end up giving more.

but that doesn't mean they shouldn't receive.

it doesn't matter whether you are countries apart, miles apart

or of two different worlds.

because it not the distance, time or similarities

that brings them together.

but love, care, concern and understanding.

or so... this is what i believe.

8:19 PM

*cough cough*

haiz.

when will it stop?

i hate COUGHING!

*sobs sobs*

woke up super early today!

ok.. not that early.

but quite early.

woke up with one swollen eye!

-peng-

no wonder it kept tearing yst.

haiz.

went to guardian to self-medicate.

lazy go doctor.

if i am still alive, that means i can qualify for pharmacist technician.

=p

this time didn't get codine.

don't wanna become a drug junkie again.

LOL

promised eric to take lunch together so had to reach office before his lunch hour.

was just in time for it.

phew.

had lunch.

went back to work.

blah. finish up quite a bit.

lonely. cz sick at home.

and it's all MY FAULT.

sob sob.

after work, went to chinatown to meet some organization.

hmmm... nothing interesting. really.

at least not to my interest.

got quite a few songs today.

hehe.

don't question my choice of songs.

i know i can be weird sometimes...

the list:

我要的世界

他和她的故事

*一个人的精彩*

突然想起你

最熟悉的陌生人

*不是不想*

一年前

月光

我的未来不是梦

*宣言*

超时空爱情

*偷心*

[梦中的你]

流星下的愿

*太想爱你*

Stars

[醇酒醉影]

喜欢你

心痛

炫耀

actually i like "ni ku" by chen jie yi too.

but i can't find. =(

those in ** are the ones i was looking for (that means i like it alot).

those in [] are canto songs.

i strongly recommend 偷心 though.

=)

if you want any of above, can ask me for it.

12:26 AM

tuesday:

went to office yesterday.

had a pleasant surprise.

-ding ding-

yeah!!! i saw eric in my office.

estactic. (i'm bored of cz's face; not as if he is SUPER SHUAI GE)

LOL.

ok. he will kill me soon.

so yeah, saw eric.

happens that cz intro him to david and david got him to help out.

wa...

so anyway, went in to talk cock a bit now and then.

after work, went for dinner with him.

went to Mcdonlds.

tried to suicide myself. muhahahha.

met yalin at toa payoh.

then went to tampines collect that plague.

home sweet home.

FINALLY.

wednesday:

woke up damn early, but still left house late.

sian.

took cab down to maxwell to meet aldric, ming yen and alvin.

wa...

alot of people.

hmmm...

nervous.

thank goodness i did not speak like an idiot.

HENG.

went back to office rot a bit, took bus to HCI.

met zu en. then met a guy from HCI.

talked about some projects.

hmmm... positive sounding.

=p

after that went to west mall to meet a group of RP DIEM fyp team.

interesting project they have there.

hahah.

got interviewed by them.

got eye candy.

-ding ding- and he is a STB scholar.

muhahaha.

then took train to raffles place.

i thought i will be late, ended up he LATER then me.

LOL.

we were both in blue stripes!!!

:x

ok. had dinner fast fast in burger king

then walked over to victoria concert hall.

as expected, i missed 1st part again.

WAHAHAHAHA.

2nd set started.

heng...

cause mu mu started playing only on 2nd.

that violin guy scrimps on his notes again!

blah. i have sweaty palms.

=)

i love the violins.

alto was power.

hahaha.

glad he likes it.

find right person to go for mumu's concert liao.

good.

hahaha.

ahhh... concert is lovely.

went home after that.

talked super loads of things.

LOL.

ok.

better go sleep soon.

my eyes keep tearing.

blah.

and hurting.

good night

11:45 AM

hmmm...

i am giving something some serious thoughts.

ok. am not really thinking about it.

but just wondering.

LOL.

hmmm...

what does it takes to turn down an offer?

having something that is better?

i see that most of my classmates are "praying" hard for a seat in uni or are in uni already.

blah.

hmmm... not many knows about my plans, probably only a handful.

haha.

people still keep asking me have i handed in my application.

blah.

the truth is: i handed in no applications.

but i got 2 invitations.

one formal invitation from smu to join their business school.

one informal invitation from this nus professor whom i know from 7th startup. so yeah, he was telling me with my portfolio he can help me secure a place is NUS business school or that NUS overseas school, whichever i like. blah blah blah.

probably next time bah.

LOL.

others deserve it better than me.

i've always condemn those whom enters polytechnics/universities with their portfolio and not their grades (some of their grades are really not pretty at all).

LOL.

probably i think it's a bit unfair bah.

but well...

2 years later then say bah.

and i've received another offer today.

from this MICE company.

hmmm...

it sounds nice.

tempting.

actually, i've not seen it coming.

reason being, i never thought i was good enough for him.

or rather, being the more passive one, i don't speak much.

haha.

so was kinda surprise that he would notice me and make an offer.

i think i should seriously do something about my stupid sorethroat.

10:10 PM

sunday:

stayed at home.

still nursing myself.

blah.

terrible to be sick.

=(

gor gor is going back to work tmr.

haiz... so fast 2 months pass le.

blah. i will miss him loads.

and his chao ta fried rice (he calls it ai xin chao fan though)

but who cares whether is it chao ta a not, he still bothers to cook for me.

blah.

and i will miss rotting at home with him.

hope RP has holidays soon.

and so is tiffany.

going back too.

haiz.

no more people for me to gossip with.

no more people for me to tease cz with.

gosh. i am beginning to hate rp.

blah.

and recently have been obsessed with heroes.

hahaha.

it will be damn cool if i ever possess one of the superpowers they have.

actually i prefer reading minds.

muhahaha.

was at the supermarket just now with gor gor.

wanted to buy coke but there wasn't any price tag or price written there.

and he was too lazy/shy to go ask the lady at cashier

so i suggested scanning it with his forehead.

he thought i was crazy. =p

saturday:

blah. the day i thought i almost died.

ok. seems like i almost died everytime.

haha.

blah. because of this "stoopid" event, i have not tried working so hard again while i'm sick (the last was 7th startup).

because of one stoopid mistake from the supplier, everyone is going without sleep.

horrible.

and i really thought i wanted to go kill the supplier then.

haha.

imagine this: you are sick with fever, cough, sore throat, flu sitting in tiffany's house with a jacket pasting stickers over 1,000 postcards without sleep throughout the night.

and your mind keeps running and asking yourself how are you going to survive for tomorrow's show?

blah. horrible.

ok. i survived. somehow.

left tiffany's place around 7am+ reached home around 9am.

first thing i did: ate 2 miserable biscuits.

drugged myself with cocktail of panadols: panadol extra, panadol flu and panadol.

wear 2 jackets, cover a blanket with a fan and bake yourself for 2 hours.

hahah. certainly a power nap and sweat it all out.

at least the fever was gone.

took a bath and was ready to rock and roll.

reached junction 8 around 11.30am.

blah. lots to do.

meddled the things till around 2pm and the show is running.

several performances...

includes STM (sensually transmitted music --> without prince though)

and paul twohill:

nice song... "here i am"

hmmm.

i should say this event was one of the more memorable ones.

left me physically and emotionally drained.

but i gained some new friends.

Vincent and Jinzhi from TJC were lovely. it was very nice working with motivated youths like them. (yesh, i'm one too. =p)

Tzi Yun from my printer. haha. yeah, the postcard supplier.

the one i almost wanted to kill.

yesh, it's true we started off on a wrong note.

but liked what she said, you can always tune it like any instruments.

=) cheers girl.

hence, it was a great experience afterall.

and me being so busy on this project

didn't realised 3 days have pass.

blah.

and i miss crapping with him!

but i will see him soon. =p

10:51 PM

sore throat... cough... fever... flu...

at this hour, i am still in tiffy's house.

rushing work for tmr's launch.

all thanks to tjc.

zzz.

blah.

i am dying soon.

save me somene.

support tjc later at junction 8.

2pm - 5pm

2:11 AM

hmmm.. it sounds like my previous blog.
the title.
it's true.
currently am in albert's house.
blogging here.
:p
don't worry... going home soon.
it was a nice heart to heart talk with him.
he is a good mediator too.
hahaha.
hmmm... speaking of which, i realized i have known him for 3 years le.
i should say he is a very different kind of mentor from moh and soh.
he is more like a dad than a mentor.
yeah.
my "godfather"
ok... i admit i self-proclaimed that.
but he never deny. =p
he have thought me a lot of things.
and he is like my mum... hot and cold.
HAHA.
but it thought me alot of things.
independence, understanding, patience and acceptance.


hahaha.
and he taught me the cocktail to death:
ketamine + estacsy + speed + ice + sleeping pills.
LOL.
ok... don't learn.
don't worry. i have never take it before.
hahaha.
hmmm... i had similiar experience with alcohol.
some view me as a alcoholic.
probably i see myself more as one whom is exposed to the different cocktails.
i don't say i have great alcohol tolerance level.
but i have a slightly higher level of alcohol tolerance as compared to normal drinkers (including guys)
but with my near death with alcohol the last experience
i am much careful with drinking now.
i still drink (i just broke my "resolution" 3rd time)
and with a better control of it now.
hahaha.
ok. i am not an alcoholic.
and i'm serious about it.
i only social drink.
and only with certain friends and albert. that's all.
haha.
ok... erm... drinking... for drinking sake is a bad experience.
when you get to a certain level of highness, you feel super high
a "courage" that you never wanted
makes you do alot of things you never thought you could have.
not that i did but i was lucky to have a tiny bit of self conscious in me.
and i was thankful for that experience.
because i feel i am more aware and careful now.
well...
i'm all better now.
=)


so anyway, i have resolved my things with cz le
thanks to albert.

it was certainly a good mediation.
=)

and also thanks to him

my rambling and midnight rantings.

LOL.

blah.

Is it you?

By Cassie

I'm looking for a lover not a friend

Somebody who can be there when I need someone to talk to

I'm looking for someone who won't pretend

Somebody not afraid to say the way they feel about you

And I'm looking for someone who understands how I feel,

Someone who can keep me real and who knows always

Baby I like to have you in my way

And I'm looking for someone who takes me there,

Wants to share, shows he cares

Thinking on the one that

I've been waiting for Is it you? is it you?

Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for

Could you be the one for me?

Could you be the one I need? Is it you? is it you?

Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for

Could you be the one for me? (Could you be?)

Could you be the one I need?

I'm looking for someone to share my pain (Uh)

Someone who I can run to, who would stay with me when it rains

Someone who I can cry with trough the night

Someone who I can trust who's hardest right

And I'm looking for someone

And I'm looking for someone who understands how I feel,

Someone who can keep me real and who knows always

Baby I like to have you in my way

And I'm looking for someone who takes me there,

Want to share, shows he cares

Thinking on the one that

I've been waiting for Is it you? is it you?

Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for

Could you be the one for me? Could you be the one I need?

Is it you? is it you?

Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for

Could you be the one for me? Could you be this one I need?

Take for grant

How much I care (How much I care)

And appreciates that I'm there

Someone who listens

And someone I can call who isn't afraid of thought to share

Is it you? is it you?

Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for

Could you be the one for me? Could you be the one I need?

Is it you? is it you?

Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for

Could you be the one for me? Could you be the one I need?

perfect song for the perfect feeling.

from Step Up 2.

=)

1:08 AM

monday:

went on board singapore flyer.

courtesy of my gor gor.

he said it is to celebrate my graduation.

blah.

poly graduation only...

next time uni, i make sure he bring me to europe. :p

ok... so here goes...

the ticket
the screen
they forced you to take photos.

it sucks... really.

my self-shots are much better.

=)

about to go onboard a ride...

some scenaries: the island there is bintan island. hotels
colorful building on right hand side is rochor canal estate
oasis
greek theatre
don't know what river
the new water sports stadium
tanjong rhu golf course

photos of us: gor gor, me and papa.

(hahaha. don't ask why they looked so stunned. it's a self shot.)

my gor gor
cheeky papa the other people n our cabin

my dad and his quirky actions. =p
emo..

10:32 PM

loads of happenings today.
met mr soh for lunch.
mr moh couldn't make it. sad.
then went over to his office after lunch.
met nat and andrew. (the ones i met in the roadshow)
talked, rot, kpo awhile.
went back to office.
quite happening.






"fate can get intertwine and entangled, and then just break off from each other to form completely new destinies." - quoted from shawn.


i do agree on this part.
it was a pleasant surprise.
but am happy for her.
because i think he is a good choice.
-winks-






went to tian tian huo guo for dinner.
me take the tom yum one, cz took the pai gu.
one more craving satisfied.
yum yum.
because on the way to meet soh, cz saw his ex gf.
and she msged him when we were eating.
so he began to ask me some questions.
particularly about jk.
and that incident.
hmmm...
all i can say is:












我曾經嘗試過
用一百零一percent的心
去愛一個人
一直在他身后旁看着
我現在卻想不起
為什么我愛他


一個在你面前說我愛你
卻在你后面是一個殘酷的人
儅該放手的時候
我就因該放手了
因爲儅你受上時
他是不會回頭


那一晚，哭了，也累了，
心也痲了


我還找不到理由再相信愛情。












that's my answer bah.
i don't see it as hiding from facts.
but i am tired talking or hearing about it.
so... yup.
pardon my chinese though.
still not familiar with compaq
couldn't find simplified chinese.

12:14 AM
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