Friday, November 28, 2008
randoms
Wednesday:
hehe
so fun!
evening went to meet sparky and shany for dinner
yum yum.
MY FAVOURITE!!!
tian tian huo guo.
tom yum tom yum!
we ate so many this and that.
hehe.
and we ate up all the pincers!!!
:x
bet the steamboat ppl probably really hate us.
and they even gave us one free jug of lemonade.
=)
after steamboat, we went to eat desserts at tong shui.
the hk cafe that i went to celebrate my new year this year with zhao, eric, tiffy and cz.
so much fun.
then we went over to burlington square to take bus.
=(
so fast the day ended.
thursday:
went to high achievers.
got the job.
yeah!
more money more money!!!
hehe.
i am going to train lifeskills!
hehe.
then i met sparky & max at liang court.
ate tampopo bento.
yum yum
max left first.
so after late lunch, we went to shop in mediya.
guess what?
we found meltykiss in mediya!!!
my fav!
sparky bought the dark rum.
i didn't buy any of it.
LOL
he bought my favourite dorayaki too.
hehe.
then i went to meet rayson for chit chat.
LOL
suppose to have dinner
but turned out neither of us want to eat.
=)
happy happy
12:06 PM
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
randoms
sunday
heeren event.
attended with sprain hand.
and was damn pek chek with some ppl.
whom doesn't take any initiative!
in the end, i had to work with an sprained arm.
i wouldn't be surprise if i have to work when i'm pregnant too.
LOL.
probably the only good thing that day was:
nicky came down to visit.
was rather surprising to see him again.
after my show, we had dinner together
then we went to QB for a few drinks.
11 cups of martell with coke
and 1 bottle of japanese beer
finally went home.
talked quite alot with nicky
and i still think he hasn't changed.
even though he said he had.
good luck bro.
tuesday:
did a bit of work in the morning.
went out for a date around 2pm.
was rather awkward in the beginning.
although we have known each other for quite some time
but it was a bit weird to go dating.
LOL.
walked the new wing of northpoint
then went to watch movie.
beverly hills chihuahua.
nice.
=)
then we met rayson for dinner.
LOL.
12:57 PM
Monday, November 24, 2008
a note to follow so...
sometimes, i really don't understand how people works.
i appreciate some initiative
when i take the initiative to contact you,
why couldn't you just give me an answer.
and i even had to ask for 3 days before i got one!
and by the time i got one, it was too late already.
how can you be trusted this way?
so what if i sprained my bloody hand.
i still could manage everything my own.
for the next two years,
i will be facing my next most difficult time of my life.
for the route i chose,
it came with a huge responsibility
which i may say probably no one else can understand it.
and because this two years are very important for me,
i can't let anyone hinder me or to be controlled.
the more the people don't expect from me,
the more i have to show them.
definately, realizing dream isn't easy.
for each dream comes with its own pressure.
and my pressure doesn't only come from work
but from my own expectations and my family too.
i have never gotten support from my family at all.
i was alone and i am still alone.
of course, for the next two years,
it will be good if there was someone to be there with me.
at least i know, when i meet with failure, when i meet with difficulties
there's always this someone whom
i can lay on his shoulders, wipe away my tears, hug me and giving me comfort, pet my head and say "serene, don't worry. there's always a solution to everything, things will be fine again. let's solve it together."
but it was never meant to be...
because if he were an additional pressure,
i can't accept it.
i am so filled up with things
i have no room to think and worry of anything else.
i don't have the energy.
it's not a nice game to play.
i don't want to waste time thinking of things
that are unreasonable and illogical.
i would rather choose to walk away then.
because if there isn't comfort,
i can still cry underneath my blanket.
i can still get comfort from my soft toys.
i can't afford another burden.
i am not a puppet.
i don't want to be a puppet.
since from the day i was borned
i didn't have the choice to choose the kind of route i want to take
the kind of things i want to do
the kind of life i want to lead
the kind of things i want to learn
and finally, this is my breakthrough
i don't want to go back to being a puppet.
if you can't, it's better off releasing me.
11:08 AM
Thursday, November 20, 2008
thoughts and words
Rainbow
By Elisa
You are not an enemy anymore
There’s a ray of light upon your face now
I can look into your eyes
And I never thought it could be so simple
You can hear the music with no sounds
You can heal my heart without me knowing
I can cry in front of you
Cause you’re not afraid to face my weakness
When we’ll wake up
Some morning rain
Will wash away our pain
Cause it never began for us
It’ll never end for us
Cause it never began for us
It’ll never end for us
You are not my enemy anymore
There’s a ray of light upon your face now
It will be all new again
There is something else
Just ‘round the corner
So when we’ll wake up
Some morning rain
Will wash away our pain
When we’ll wake up
Some morning rain
Will wash away our pain
Cause it never began for us
It’ll never end for us
I was looking for a place to stay
Are you looking for a place to stay
No it never began for us
It’ll never end for us
Cause it never began for us
It’ll never end for us
Cause it never began for us
It’ll never end for us
Cause it never began for us
It’ll never end for us
and i finally watched "the leap years" today.
it took me almost forever to watch it.
and to search for it.
it was a pity i watched it alone.
and it was a pity, the promise never took place.
and probably will never.
as december slowly approaches
my depression slips in too.
i've always hate december.
and this year, there's another reason why i will hate december even more.
december will be when, it is going to eat up 3 of my good friends.
cz, paulie and sparky.
my hatred with december started in 2005.
with my very first encounter with someone special.
everything was good except for timing.
hence, it did not last.
and i moved on ahead with my toughest time in my life.
and then she left.
leaving us all in confused.
everything i did in 2006, i wasn't in a conscious state.
but it eventually happened...
december 2006.
to be specific, 31st dec 2006.
was what i call a miracle in my life.
or rather, the once and probably my only time being cinderella.
the only difference between me and cinderella was:
cinderella had a happily ever after ending with her prince
but i didn't.
afterall, it was only a dream come true just for one day.
and my hatred with december begin to sips in.
but not too much.
yet...
december 2007...
27th december 07
was another day i will never forget.
the day that landed me in hospital.
and probably only one knew the reason why.
i have never cried my heart out like that day.
and because of that, it makes it hard for me to forget.
ever.
that how foolish and stupid was i.
that i felt like jumping down immediately.
this year...
how will december be like for me?
i can never imagine.
will this year's december erase
whatever i had and felt in the last decembers?
6:27 PM
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
带我走
带我走
By 杨丞琳
每次我总一个人走
交叉路口
自己生活
这次你却说带我走
某个角落
就你和我
像土壤抓紧花的迷惑
像天空缠绵雨的汹涌
在你的身后
计算的步伐每个背影每个场景
都有发过的梦
带我走
到遥远的以后
带走我
一个人自转的寂寞
带我走
就算我的爱你的自由都将成为泡沫
我不怕
带我走
每次我总独自远走
保持缄默
不皱眉头
这次你却说一起走
彼此温柔
从此以后
像土壤抓紧花的迷惑
像天空缠绵雨的汹涌
在你的身后
计算的步伐每个背影每个场景
都有发过的梦
带我走
到遥远的以后
带走我
一个人自转的寂寞
带我走
就算我的爱你的自由都将成为泡沫
我不怕
带我走
白马溜过漆黑尽头
潮汐袭来浪花颤动
凝在海岸结成了墨
蔷薇朝向草原气球
邮差传来一地彩虹
刻在心中拍打着脉搏
带我走
到遥远的以后
带走我
一个人自转的寂寞
带我走
就算我的爱你的自由都将成为泡沫
我不怕
带我走
带我走 就
算我的爱你的自由都将成为泡沫
带我走
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无论以后的路有多遥远
多困难
你都会一直带着我走
对吗?
10:39 AM
