Thursday, November 20, 2008
thoughts and words
Rainbow
By Elisa
You are not an enemy anymore
There’s a ray of light upon your face now
I can look into your eyes
And I never thought it could be so simple
You can hear the music with no sounds
You can heal my heart without me knowing
I can cry in front of you
Cause you’re not afraid to face my weakness
When we’ll wake up
Some morning rain
Will wash away our pain
Cause it never began for us
It’ll never end for us
Cause it never began for us
It’ll never end for us
You are not my enemy anymore
There’s a ray of light upon your face now
It will be all new again
There is something else
Just ‘round the corner
So when we’ll wake up
Some morning rain
Will wash away our pain
When we’ll wake up
Some morning rain
Will wash away our pain
Cause it never began for us
It’ll never end for us
I was looking for a place to stay
Are you looking for a place to stay
No it never began for us
It’ll never end for us
Cause it never began for us
It’ll never end for us
Cause it never began for us
It’ll never end for us
Cause it never began for us
It’ll never end for us
and i finally watched "the leap years" today.
it took me almost forever to watch it.
and to search for it.
it was a pity i watched it alone.
and it was a pity, the promise never took place.
and probably will never.
as december slowly approaches
my depression slips in too.
i've always hate december.
and this year, there's another reason why i will hate december even more.
december will be when, it is going to eat up 3 of my good friends.
cz, paulie and sparky.
my hatred with december started in 2005.
with my very first encounter with someone special.
everything was good except for timing.
hence, it did not last.
and i moved on ahead with my toughest time in my life.
and then she left.
leaving us all in confused.
everything i did in 2006, i wasn't in a conscious state.
but it eventually happened...
december 2006.
to be specific, 31st dec 2006.
was what i call a miracle in my life.
or rather, the once and probably my only time being cinderella.
the only difference between me and cinderella was:
cinderella had a happily ever after ending with her prince
but i didn't.
afterall, it was only a dream come true just for one day.
and my hatred with december begin to sips in.
but not too much.
yet...
december 2007...
27th december 07
was another day i will never forget.
the day that landed me in hospital.
and probably only one knew the reason why.
i have never cried my heart out like that day.
and because of that, it makes it hard for me to forget.
ever.
that how foolish and stupid was i.
that i felt like jumping down immediately.
this year...
how will december be like for me?
i can never imagine.
will this year's december erase
whatever i had and felt in the last decembers?
6:27 PM
