Monday, March 2, 2009
Dream
Have you ever tried this before?
Scenario One
you were dreaming...
in your dream, you dreamt of him.
he was so close to you.
you felt so secured with him.
he again... did all the things you missed seeing.
it was so real that you thought you were in the dream.
the reality:
you are you.
he... is a superstar (some way or another).
but you are ONLY and SOLELY friends with him.
however, he was the sweetest thing that ever happened in your life.
what will you do?
ok.
the above plot was just my thoughts.
NOTHING MORE THAN THAT.
i mean, if that really happen in your life, what will you do?
according to korean and taiwan dramas,
i think he will become the hero in your life...
right?
anyway, i am planning my birthday party currently.
erm... do drop me venue recommendations.
i have a tight budget of course!
LOL.
sit-down-dinner or dinner buffets are fine.
looking at around 40 pax.
also looking for sponsors.
12:08 AM
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Vampires - REAL OR FAKE?
i know i have been blogging very little
and yes, the new post sounds awkward.
but it has been something that i've been wondering for a long long time.
my first encounter with vampires took place when i was 5 years old.
i chanced upon a book that my brother had.
a book about vampires and werewolves.
it's one of the supernatural guide out on sale.
i was so fascinated with the vampires even though there were werewolves in the same book.
and my next encounter was watching buffy the vampire slayer.
yeah, i haven't miss any episodes then.
then i went on watching an interview with a vampire (by tom cruise and kristen dunst)
then.. i watched the famous hong kong serial, a date with a vampire.
after all these, somehow at the back of me,
i had a feeling that there are real vampires around.
especially after watching twilight and reading it's series..
i am once again super curious about vampires.
it's been a month since i last read finish the twilight series.
and not to mention paranormal tours do have a part in my curiosity.
once again, i believe vampires are real.
hence... i have launched a personal research into vampires.
and i chanced upon this national geographic clip:
Enjoy...
7:58 PM
Sunday, December 28, 2008
to her...
I don’t know how people view me as.
I don’t know how friends and acquaintances see me as.
I don’t know how much he understands me…
I haven’t being able to sleep for the past few days because my mind couldn’t stop running.
I thought about work.
I thought about life.
I thought about myself.
I thought about mummy.
And finally I thought about “regrets”.
Friends always say they are there to support me.
But how much do they know about me to support me?
their words of encouragement, their concern, i appreciate.
deep down my heart, i know the problem lies with me.
with myself, with my choices.
i know soon i will be lapsing into depression.
in fact, for the past 2 years
i was forcing myself to hold on, not to fall into depression.
but i am beginning to feel tired as life goes on.
i still can't find that pillar or wall that i can lean on.
they have me.
but i have no one...
i am lonely.
very lonely...
i have friends.
many friends.
i have him.
but it still seems empty.
none of it can fill the emptiness...
i have been thinking of the choices i made.
i have been putting up with criticisms over the months.
i know i have to be firm with the decisions i make.
which i always am.
but you know...
ice cold queen also do have feelings.
i want to further my studies like any other everyone.
is not that i can't, but i rejected the offers.
i want to work like any other everyone.
have fun in office, have nice colleagues.
is not that i can't, but i wanted to be ambitious.
is not that i am sick of my work.
no, i have loads of fun.
the problem lies with me.
and i don't know what's wrong with me.
i hate tolerating other's habit when they don't even show patience to me.
i hate giving all good when they don't even return a small favor to me.
i hate lending my shoulders to people when they don't even know i'm depressed.
i think i am going crazy...
i was thinking...
when... is our time to meet again?
6:28 AM
Saturday, December 20, 2008
how vilgilant are singaporeans?
ever since the sept 11 issue back in 2001,
more and more people are aware of such danger, known as terrorism.
but how would singaporeans react when they encounter one?
the closest we got to terrorism in singapore
was having yishun mrt filmed as one of the terrorism target
and subsequently people receive letters with baby powder
being pass as a anthrax scare.
even recently, after the singaporean lawyer became a victim
in the mumbai terrorist attack,
how vilgilant can one be?
or how educated are we to realise that you will never know how close you are to terrorism attacks.
the goverment sure did their part in educating the civilians on national security
but do people be bothered with it?
today on my way home after lunch with cz,
we found this bag sitting alone at the bus stop.
we waited for quite awhile and no one claimed it.
hence, we called the police.
yup, people may think we are making a big deal out of an unwanted bag
or probably a lost item.
but, to be safe than sorry
we didn't want to take any chances.
who knows, later in the evening or a little while,
i might hear an explosion 3 blocks away from me
and i will carry this guilt with me for life!
but still, typical singaporeans don't think this way.
they just can't be bothered.
worst! there was this girl around 10 yrs old,
even sat next to the bag happily chatting away on her hp..
i was like wtf.
if that was a bomb...
she would have died long before she could say hello on her hp.
this shows how civic-minded singaporeans are...
1:56 PM
Friday, November 28, 2008
randoms
Wednesday:
hehe
so fun!
evening went to meet sparky and shany for dinner
yum yum.
MY FAVOURITE!!!
tian tian huo guo.
tom yum tom yum!
we ate so many this and that.
hehe.
and we ate up all the pincers!!!
:x
bet the steamboat ppl probably really hate us.
and they even gave us one free jug of lemonade.
=)
after steamboat, we went to eat desserts at tong shui.
the hk cafe that i went to celebrate my new year this year with zhao, eric, tiffy and cz.
so much fun.
then we went over to burlington square to take bus.
=(
so fast the day ended.
thursday:
went to high achievers.
got the job.
yeah!
more money more money!!!
hehe.
i am going to train lifeskills!
hehe.
then i met sparky & max at liang court.
ate tampopo bento.
yum yum
max left first.
so after late lunch, we went to shop in mediya.
guess what?
we found meltykiss in mediya!!!
my fav!
sparky bought the dark rum.
i didn't buy any of it.
LOL
he bought my favourite dorayaki too.
hehe.
then i went to meet rayson for chit chat.
LOL
suppose to have dinner
but turned out neither of us want to eat.
=)
happy happy
12:06 PM
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
randoms
sunday
heeren event.
attended with sprain hand.
and was damn pek chek with some ppl.
whom doesn't take any initiative!
in the end, i had to work with an sprained arm.
i wouldn't be surprise if i have to work when i'm pregnant too.
LOL.
probably the only good thing that day was:
nicky came down to visit.
was rather surprising to see him again.
after my show, we had dinner together
then we went to QB for a few drinks.
11 cups of martell with coke
and 1 bottle of japanese beer
finally went home.
talked quite alot with nicky
and i still think he hasn't changed.
even though he said he had.
good luck bro.
tuesday:
did a bit of work in the morning.
went out for a date around 2pm.
was rather awkward in the beginning.
although we have known each other for quite some time
but it was a bit weird to go dating.
LOL.
walked the new wing of northpoint
then went to watch movie.
beverly hills chihuahua.
nice.
=)
then we met rayson for dinner.
LOL.
12:57 PM
Monday, November 24, 2008
a note to follow so...
sometimes, i really don't understand how people works.
i appreciate some initiative
when i take the initiative to contact you,
why couldn't you just give me an answer.
and i even had to ask for 3 days before i got one!
and by the time i got one, it was too late already.
how can you be trusted this way?
so what if i sprained my bloody hand.
i still could manage everything my own.
for the next two years,
i will be facing my next most difficult time of my life.
for the route i chose,
it came with a huge responsibility
which i may say probably no one else can understand it.
and because this two years are very important for me,
i can't let anyone hinder me or to be controlled.
the more the people don't expect from me,
the more i have to show them.
definately, realizing dream isn't easy.
for each dream comes with its own pressure.
and my pressure doesn't only come from work
but from my own expectations and my family too.
i have never gotten support from my family at all.
i was alone and i am still alone.
of course, for the next two years,
it will be good if there was someone to be there with me.
at least i know, when i meet with failure, when i meet with difficulties
there's always this someone whom
i can lay on his shoulders, wipe away my tears, hug me and giving me comfort, pet my head and say "serene, don't worry. there's always a solution to everything, things will be fine again. let's solve it together."
but it was never meant to be...
because if he were an additional pressure,
i can't accept it.
i am so filled up with things
i have no room to think and worry of anything else.
i don't have the energy.
it's not a nice game to play.
i don't want to waste time thinking of things
that are unreasonable and illogical.
i would rather choose to walk away then.
because if there isn't comfort,
i can still cry underneath my blanket.
i can still get comfort from my soft toys.
i can't afford another burden.
i am not a puppet.
i don't want to be a puppet.
since from the day i was borned
i didn't have the choice to choose the kind of route i want to take
the kind of things i want to do
the kind of life i want to lead
the kind of things i want to learn
and finally, this is my breakthrough
i don't want to go back to being a puppet.
if you can't, it's better off releasing me.
11:08 AM
